Life just hasn’t slowed down lately. I feel like if I pull up any of my posts from the past year, they all echo the same sentiment: “slow down time! I need a few extra hours during the day! How is Caleb almost a year old! Where did that entire last month go?!”
I am working harder than I ever have before, and I can see the results in my work… I think (well, I hope), I am getting better at what I do. I certainly am loving it more than ever, and I feel certain that the rest of 2014 and 2015 will continue to show my improvement technically, as well as taking care of the business side of things.
I also feel like I am managing my time as a working mom much better than I did at the start. I don’t think I am alone in that– those first few newborn months are brutal man. I have to admit though, if it wasn’t for my mom and mother-in-law helping out with Caleb twice a week, I wouldn’t be doing as well. It is so, so important to surround yourself with helping hands. It really does take a village to raise a child.
As much as I contemplate being a full time stay at home mom, and abandoning my work (mostly on sunny days when I am by the pool and in full on relaxation mode), I remind myself how its good for me to do something I am so passionate about. Being a wedding photographer, and now a teacher to others endeavoring to journey down a similar path, is beyond rewarding and fulfilling.
This week I purchased by first FILM camera. FILM! I am half scared to death, and half so excited I could pee my pants (bad visual, I know). I know that this rather large investment —we could have gone on a second honeymoon with the money I used to buy this one piece of equipment!– will only make me better and is going to open a whole new world of ways to capture and harness light.
So basically, I am writing all of this to say yeah, life is crazy hectic busy. It’s messy and full of failures a lot of the time, but its also so FULL and wonderful. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I would choose this career, in this niche over and over again. Because I believe in what I am doing. I believe in celebrations, and marriage beyond the wedding day. I believe in glitter and champagne toasts, living your dreams, and capturing love with beautiful photos. I believe in confetti tosses, family time and sunset hour glows. I believe in the time I invest with couples, families and people, and I am beyond thankful for this life I am living.
To those of you who can’t say the same thing about how you are spending your hours, days, months, years…life! I say, find your passion. Spark your creativity with someone, somehow. Find a way to harness the talents that God has blessed you with so you can say “Yeah, I believe in what I am doing”.